inhale

No due process in the natural order of things bc shitty people get away with doing whatever they want

Me eating my happy little sandwich from Whataburger at 5:30am, laughing and talking to myself, realizing I’ve never been this content before. This sort of solitude is new and feels good. Is this… is this what breaking away from codependency feels like? I’m so grateful, and I hope and wish for others to step into this world for themselves one day too.

my favorite moments are when you find those songs you instantly fell in love with the first time you heard them, just to fall in love the same way over again.

I arrange myself in a way that I have the most perfect view of the sky, layered between branches of surviving trees. To see the stars, to hear the critters and static from the brooks alongside you. I close my eyes to imagine floating on the river instead, breathing myself into its poem.

Breathe. I’m going to get through this like I always fucking do. I’m going to be okay. I am strong. I am enough. I will survive. I can do this. There’s no other way out except to keep walking forward. There. Is. No. Other. Way. Out.

I can’t wait to share all my secrets with someone one day.

I think a lot about who I am becoming and who I’ve been. A lot of exhaustion, a lot of brushing myself off and carrying on. Sometimes I’ll scream to myself in the car and wonder if this is as good as it gets. Suffering in silence, protecting the image of myself and others.

Well, maybe things might be stressful, but amidst the chaos, one day you’ll decide to wholeheartedly put yourself first. You’re going to tell yourself you deserve better than this shit and feel that in your bones.