I’m tired of reaching out and talking about things

Tired of one traumatic stressor after another

I’m tired of holding on to the idea of how much better everything is supposed to get

I ripped off a 6 year old bandaid by force and didn’t realize the flood of grief, pressure, and shame I would feel from it. I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore and I am so embarrassed to be hurting and broken like this.

I’m in a place of self judgement, self harm, and a lot of numbness

I am just so fucking tired of everything.