i don’t know how long i can keep up with this “work hard play later” attitude, because i literally was dozing off behind the wheel tonight and had to call a friend of mine to stay awake until i parked in front of my apartment. i knew i’d have to do a lot this semester to make things right again, but it’s just too much stress to put on my shoulders all at once. and sadly i can’t do anything about it. if i drop anything out of my life right now, the only result would be no answers to my problems.

who will pay my rent?

who will pay my tuition?

how else will i be able to stay in college?

how else will i be able to fix my mistakes?